Sick and Tired

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, which almost kept me up all night. They've been bothering me for quite sometime now but I just kept on ignoring them, until last night. I didn't force myself to think about it, everything just came to me.

What I feel right now is kinda hard to explain, it's full of mixed emotions. I'm not even sure how to start.

I'm just fed up with my current life, and it's been like this for a looong time. It just feels like I'm stuck in a long traffic jam on rush hour. I'm so sick and tired of it. I want change, I need change. I'm not really into it but I think it is the right time. I want to get busy, move on and start a new chapter in my life, each and every aspect of it. I actually feel envious of all the people around me. Everybody seems to be happy and contented, except me. Well, I am happy, sorta, but I know there's something missing. If that's not the case, then why do I feel so empty? I guess I've been living in denial. I think to myself, "I'm fine", but I'm really not.

There are other things that are bugging me, but I'm unsure of how to put it. Life is just so confusing at times and it sucks when you don't know what to do about it.

Why does everything have to be so complicated?

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